on the quest for early retirement

This idea of early retirement is not one that I’ve really discussed, in depth, with many people. I find that a lot of people just don’t have the mindset, or maybe desire, to recognize that early retirement is a very real thing. I find myself growing more and more weary of the routine of getting up, going to work, coming home, going to bed, and basically rinsing and repeating over and over.
I have, over the past couple of weeks, found myself recognizing halfway through the work week that we are, in fact, halfway through the work week. Which is scary to me. The idea that I’m constantly living my life just working to pay bills and exist without really doing much of anything.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I find my work to be fulfilling. But boy is the monotony¬†of the routine getting boring. It really has, to an extent, become what is the new challenge this week? I enjoy the people I work with, and I enjoy the students I work with. But this idea that I just need to continue to do the same thing over and over is starting to terrify me.
The reality is I could be spending my days reading, writing, playing video games, watching Netflix, enjoying shows in New York City, and perhaps, one day, doing it all with someone I love. And I’m just working.
I want to build a life that I enjoy and that I control. It is so important to me that I am able to do that. And yet, I find myself being complacent. I find myself just sitting and waiting. So I need to move forward. I need to envision that life and build it. It is possible. So many people have done it. But there is still so much unknown. There is still so much that just says “what if?”
What if things go wrong?
What if I lose family and/or friends?
What if something happens?
What if…
What if I’m able to earn enough money that I don’t have to ever think about money again?
What if I can see a Broadway show every single week?
What if I can spend my days wandering through a city with a significant other?
What if I can have everything I dream of?
What if I just take that step and become wealthy?
There is hope out there, and I find myself reaching out to seize it more and more. I think that this is where I move. This is where I move in silence and create the life I’m dreaming of. Not everyone has to know. So, let me move forward. Let me create in silence. Let me build a simple life in a complex world.

#fictionfriday, number 49

#fictionfriday, number 48